It's been quite a while since I have posted anything. I feel like I have been slacking on this whole blog deal.. but I have been keeping myself busy.. attempting to pass the time as much as I can. And it's been so long since my last post that I'm not really sure where to begin.

I guess I will start with.. I'm officially MARRIED!! Tony came home for a 5-6 day block leave, and we enjoyed every second of it.. spending every second possible attached at the hip. And at the end of it all, we had to face the inevitable. We had to let go again.. for the 3rd time. Tony had no choice but to fight the death grip I had on his hand. Just as he was about to walk toward the gate for his flight back to MS, he turned around for one more hug, I took advantage of the situation and dove for his hand again, knowing I had to hold on tighter than I did a few minutes earlier. But before I even had the chance to tighten my grip, he pulled his hand away from me, faster than the amount of time it took for me to reach for it. I knew he was being the stronger one out of the two of us, but it still destroyed me. My heart went crashing to floor. Watching him walk away from me, knowing how much he loves me, and that I cannot follow him.. it is one of the hardest things I have ever had to do. I must have stood there at the gate for about ten minutes, waiting for him to come running back to me. I knew it wouldn't happen, but I figured there was no harm in standing there waiting... and praying that it would happen.

On a more positive note, my friend D (I will refer to her as D for the sake of her privacy) came home from Cali last week. She is dating my friend, F (again... sake of his privacy). He is in Iraq right now. I am so grateful for her return home. We have been spending a lot of time together lately, getting care packages ready for the boys, writing letters to them, staying up all night watching movies (waiting for our men to call us), making nightly trips to Denny's, just to have a couple cups of coffee, when we can very easily make some at home.. we have just been trying to keep busy, and keep eachother sane at the same time.. and so far, we have both been doing a damn good job! Tonight we took a trip to Wal-Mart and picked up some stuff to make trail mix for the boys. Sure it's easier to just buy a bag already made.. but I have a secret (eh, I guess it's not that big of a secret) recipe and like to put together my own mix. I don't even know if Tony likes trail mix.. but even if he doesn't, he will now!! Just because I took the time to make it. And you're damn right I made it with lots of love!! He may be thousands of miles away, but I still want to try and take care of him anyways!!