I'm officially 22 today. It's miserable all around today. I am still sick. It's raining outside. I have to work in an hour. And the one person that matters most in my life cannot be here by my side to celebrate with me. Thank you, Army! Thank you for making yet another birthday of mine a complete waste of a day. Nothing has ever gone right on my birthday. Something or someone always ends up spoiling it. And this year the award goes to the Army. I know the Army isn't really to blame for this.. and even though he volunteered for this deployment, neither is Tony. This is his job and I accepted that when I chose to marry him. I just feel the need to blame this crappy day on someone.. or something.. such as the Army. And to make things worse, today is his day off. Early, early this AM we got to talk on yahoo for quite a while. That came to a screeching stop when he had to take off and go find the post office so he could send me a package. I ended up crying myself to sleep. I wanted in the worst way to tell him that I don't care about the package. It was his day off and I wanted him all to myself!! We he finally got back to his computer, hours later, I am assuming their internet connection died, because he got booted offline in mid conversation and never signed back on. Once again, thanks Army.

I've been keeping really busy lately with getting Christmas packages ready for the hubby. I'm running out of time, yet I feel like there's SO much of it. I'm dreading the upcoming holidays. I know my Aunt will most likely be here, for atleast Christmas. She didn't get to make it to the wedding so I know she will have a never ending list of questions for me, regarding Tony, that will only reduce me to tears. She has already done so once over the phone. Asking me how I do it, and telling me how strong I am to be able to love someone everyday that I wake up without them next to me... I had completely forgotten that my life was going to be like that for the next YEAR! Thank you much for reminding me! (I'm sure you can sense the sarcasm in that.)
I'll be working both New Year's Eve and New Year's Day. It's not like I really have anything better to do. I don't want to hang out with friends and watch them all get kissed at midnight. D and I were discussing this one day while out shopping for the boys and some ballsy lady who had been listening to us the whole time responds with, "It's not all it's cracked up to be." I nearly had to pick my jaw up off the floor. I wasn't sure if I heard her correctly and so I looked at D to catch her reaction. Of course she had them fighting words, "OUR MEN ARE IN IRAQ!" Oh gosh how I love that girl. "Oh. Well.. that's a different story then," and she scurried off in fear. I say fear because D and I were ready to attack. If that lady had stuck around for another 5 seconds, she would have left the store with some missing limbs. The lesson learned here.. you don't mess with any girl who's man is stuck in a war zone. You just DON'T.

Time for work.

I love you Tony! And thank you again for all my precious flowers today!!!!