Tony's Army Wife - surviving my first deployment

Friday, December 14, 2007

It's about damn time I update this thing. I have slacked off so much. 'Tis the season which doesn't help very much either. I have been trying to pick up as much time as possible, at work, so that I am not broke after Christmas. D is home from Cali right now, as well. She's only here until the 24th though. She has some difficult medical/health problems she needs to go to Children's Hospital for. That's where the doctor is who performed surgery on her when she was born, due to her twin being inside of her. Needless to say, her twin didn't make it, and now D has two colons and parts of her intestines are man-made. She can't keep anything down but water. She doesn't even have a chance to digest anything she eats. She absolutely miserable and this cold, snowy weather isn't helping her situation. I feel awful for her. I have been trying to hang out with her as much as possible, but I had picked up a bunch of time before I even knew she was coming home. And it's hard because her husband is still out in Cali, due to still being in the Marines, and Tony is here with me. I know how much she misses him, so I try not to be too lovey with Tony, when the three of us are hanging out. I don't want D to be even more sad, but at the same time, I don't want Tony to feel neglected. I know he realizes that D is only here for a short amount of time, and I know that Tony is still trying to settle into civilian life. I just hate being the one to cause someone any kind of pain, but it kind of hurts me to feel like I have to choose between the two of them. On the flipside, when I am at work, Tony has been hanging out with D. And I am content with that. The both of them are such great company for me, so I am sure (or atleast I hope) that they enjoy each others' company. It gives D a chance to vent about her man and get a man's perspective on things, and Tony can get D's advice on how to approach me about certain things. Either way, I am glad that D is home and I wish she didn't have to leave again. I know her and I were kind of rocky, earlier this year, but I miss her dearly.