I think I'm ready to post a quick update. My life has consisted of nothing but work (surprise surprise), school, work, sleep, work, and talking to Tony every chance I get. Life in the ER never seems to stop! It seems that the nicer the weather gets, the more patients we get. And it always seems to be silly little complaints that can wait til the next day to see their primary care doctor. Nothing is ever urgent in the emergency room, I figured that one out a long time ago. I'm supposed to work 7a-3p tomorrow, however, my manager asked me today if I would come in at 3am tomorrow instead of 7am. I was hesitant to take her up on the offer because it's hard enough as it is getting my butt up and ready to be there by 7am. I told her that I will make every effort to be in at 3am, but I wasn't writing my name down incase I do over sleep. This will put me into over time this week, so I really am going to give it my all and try to get to work by 3am. I will seriously be amazed if I get through the next couple months without having a heart attack. This no sleep cycle/lack of sleep thing is taking a toll on my well-being. The only thing that keeps me driving on is my hubby. He works his hiney off over there and he has no choice. It's not like he can sit there and choose whether or not he wants to work that day and/or pick up more hours. When they tell him, "Let's GO" they mean it. The other day he pulled almost a 20 hour shift. I don't understand how they expect those guys to pull such ridiculous shifts like that with little to no sleep at all. When you're that tired your reflexes aren't the greatest and at times you let your guard down. Those men and women can't afford that! Their lives are at stake! I don't even really bother asking anymore because I know that whatever answer I get will just piss me off more.
This Friday I have a photo shoot scheduled. I'm excited about that. It'll be something to help pass the time, and on top of that I'll have pictures to send to the hubby. I've also been watching the America's Next Top Model marathons on Saturdays, so I really feel ready for it! :) That used to be my dream growing up.. being a model. But then I stopped growing, and that became a problem. I'm far too short to ever do any kind of modeling, but it's still fun doing unpaid shoots on the side and building up a portfolio anyways.
Another quick update, I feel like the world's worst wife! My hubby's birthday is on Wednesday and I have yet to send him a card or a package!! I have cards and I have the stuff to put a care package together, I've just been so busy with work and school and everything else inbetween. I really feel awful about it! I told Tony that he will get stuff from me.. it's just going to be a little late. He says he understands, but I know that deep down.. he's disappointed in me! It's now seven months into the deployment and for some reason I still feel so new at this whole thing! I guess it's one of those things in life that you never get used to! And to be completely honest.. I don't want to get used to this life! Yeah, I chose it, but I also don't want to live it forever! I just keep telling myself that this is only temporary and eventually it'll all come to end. And then somewhere in the mix of all of that.. I have to keep reminding myself to breathe.