Well, I hit that breaking point tonight. I broke down and continuted to break down until Tony called me after his shift ended. I got in a huge fight with my mom tonight and to be honest, I'm not even really sure what started it.. all I know is that I was the one biting my tongue while being yelled at. I think it may have had something to do with the fact that I wasn't all that thrilled when my mom told me that my sister had called home from boot camp today to let her know that she was in the infirmary with possible stress fractures in her ankles. I had a long day at work, by myself, and needed something to eat before I collapsed, and then I sat down on the couch next to my mom and asked her some questions about my sister. Within thirty minutes or so, the two of us were at each other's throats. Somehow it ended up being about me not caring about my sister, and me yelling about the fact that they don't care about Tony. I knew I shouldn't have touched that subject, but it's true. They don't write to him, they barely e-mail him. They always seem to wait until I'm on the phone with him and then they'll tell me, to tell him, that they say, "Hello." All I know is that I can't wait until he comes home so I can get the heck out of here. I miss him so much! I feel like I need him now more than ever! And it kills me that he can't come home and hold me, even just for five minutes! This feeling of lonliness is getting so old and I am more than ready to settle into my marriage. Who wouldn't be ready for that after being married for one year and only seeing each other for a total of less than one month. But I love him more than anything in this world, and I am willing to do anything for him. He is definately worth the wait.

Before I head off to bed tonight, I just want to thank Kristen Tsetsi for mentioning my blog in a myspace bulletin. I got a handful of responses from other military wives and it is so comforting to know that I am not alone. I know that there are thousands of military spouses, but there really isn't any in my area, which makes it more difficult to cope. But being able to talk to you ladies here on the net makes it so much easier to breathe. I'm glad I can share my life experiences with you all, so that you, too, can know that someone out there knows and understands exactly what you are going through. God Bless all of you and I hope that you find my blog interesting and continue to read it! Good night and sweet dreams!