Apparently my best friend, D, is no longer my best friend anymore. I know this because she deleted me as a friend on myspace. I know... myspace... it's just a stupid website that should mean absolutely nothing and it's silly if me to upset over such a thing. If you only knew the bond that her and I shared before she left, you'd understand. It started out with me not being in her top friends. Again, it's silly. I'm well aware of it, but it still hurts. I hoped that over time she'd understand how and why I need time to myself. I was okay knowing that I still had her to fall back on if things got really really difficult. But I'm stuck with absolutely no support system. At this point, I doubt things will ever be the same between her and I. However, I will continue to hope that our friendship doesn't remain like this forever.
Aside from that, I have continued with my hectic... work my butt off to help save lives in the ER, cram my brain full of useless nutrition facts (that will never use again for as long as I live) by going to school, and keeping the faith while trying my hardest to stay strong and hold down the home front as an Army Wife ...schedule. However, I was lucky enough to get a break from some of the extra stress in my life, a couple weeks ago. My family spent a few days in NJ to attend my sister's boot camp graduation for the Coast Guard. It was nice to finally have time for me, but at the same time it was too quiet! I realized exactly how lonely I would've been, throughout this deployment, if I had my own place and didn't stay with my family. They drive me crazy, there's no doubt about that, but I truly do appreciate them. Whether they realize that or not is a different story. I suppose that's my fault, though, for not showing or telling them more often than I do.
I haven't been able to spend too much time with my sister over the last week and a half. She's leaving Thursday, so we have decided to spend all day at the beach tomorrow.
I've also been working on my sleeve as well. I have some all the leaves on the upper half colored in and on Friday I got more of the outline done on my forearm. I can't wait til the whole thing is done!! Atleast I have that to keep me busy. Heh.
The hubby is online right now, so this is going to end right here! Sorry!
Aside from that, I have continued with my hectic... work my butt off to help save lives in the ER, cram my brain full of useless nutrition facts (that will never use again for as long as I live) by going to school, and keeping the faith while trying my hardest to stay strong and hold down the home front as an Army Wife ...schedule. However, I was lucky enough to get a break from some of the extra stress in my life, a couple weeks ago. My family spent a few days in NJ to attend my sister's boot camp graduation for the Coast Guard. It was nice to finally have time for me, but at the same time it was too quiet! I realized exactly how lonely I would've been, throughout this deployment, if I had my own place and didn't stay with my family. They drive me crazy, there's no doubt about that, but I truly do appreciate them. Whether they realize that or not is a different story. I suppose that's my fault, though, for not showing or telling them more often than I do.
I haven't been able to spend too much time with my sister over the last week and a half. She's leaving Thursday, so we have decided to spend all day at the beach tomorrow.
I've also been working on my sleeve as well. I have some all the leaves on the upper half colored in and on Friday I got more of the outline done on my forearm. I can't wait til the whole thing is done!! Atleast I have that to keep me busy. Heh.
The hubby is online right now, so this is going to end right here! Sorry!
posted by Stacie @ 9:45 PM
1 Comments:
At 1:55 PM,
Kristen said…
Brave of you to write about a MySpace relationship gone sour when many think of internet friends as paper-thin, at best. Still, thoughts are thoughts, and we communicate through the internet, and there are people behind those words they type. I don't know why she deleted you, but if you want/need support, try militaryspousesupport.net. Lovely, warm, helpful people.
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